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Yeah its been a while...I just really have had so much stuff to do and just no time for this. Today i was sick and i slept all day and now i can't sleep so i figure i might as well update this jawn..
So what has happened in my life lately?? Grease came to an end! I really diddnt think i would cry as much as i did at senior roses. I really wasnt enjoying the play till like the last weekend, but i was really glad that i stayed with it. I'm gonna miss everyone so much...ug...just thinking about next year stresses me so much.
We had our St. Philz reunion. Everyone was pretty much the same.
Sean turned 18!!! and lit a napkin on fire! That was awesome!
Spring break!!!!!! Im so glad to get a brake from school. Graduation is so close and i still have no idea about college...I'm leaning toward St joes these days...but im not 100% about it yet...well see...I'm still thinking about penn state but more than likely i'll end up at st joes...Everyone and their mom is going to temple...I think i just wanna give it another look to make sure i DONT want to go there...I really dont know what i DO want tho.
I wish i could sort out my thought like Carrie Bradshawl on Sex and the city. I heart that show...I've been watching it non stoped the past two days b/c i wasnt feel great. Anywho. I really don't like the graphicness of it... I sometimes even fast forward those parts because i feel like i shouldnt be watching that even at 18. But i like the little comments that Carrie makes about relationships and whatnot. I think in everything single show she says, "I couldn't help but wonder..." Its a good show...you should watch it.
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| Grease Lightening |
[09 Mar 2005|08:57pm] |
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Hmm..So this past weekend was opening weekend. I really diddnt want to do it at all..I've been debating quiting for the past month...I still kinda am...anywho. Friday night was a lot more fun then i expected it to be. I think really i'm just getting ssick of people's ego's and i really dont have the pacients to be around them anymore...But the crowd of friday night was awesome! they really liked it and i really enjoyed being on stage for the 5 minutes that i was. And i had a really good time at the cast party afterwards. I havent danced in forever and it was alot of fun.
Saturday night was like drama after drama. There was a crazy agruement...then michele had to go to the hospital..the firealarm went off...and to top it off, marie's son, paul, was chilling out in the dressing room. What a delight. He doesn't annoy us as much as he use to tho. Any...sean say that play that night which was awesome because we got to hang out with everyone at piccas afterword. I had a good time...we counted down till dan's birthday! It was grrrreat!
THe mother daughter bunch was on sunday...so i had to wheel my mom around...But i'm glad she could make it. I got to cantor for the first time which was really cool! and i got to look all cute :) Our brunch table was pretty empty tho b.c michele was at the hospital and margaret was sick too...but it was nice!
We had off today (wednesday) so sean came over on tuesday which was really nice because since i was play and he has work we arent going to see each other as much for the next couple of weeks...so it was good we had some time together. Jim and alex came over to and we watching jerry macguire/real world. Good times just chillin out.
I went up and just chilled at seans house today. I was just nice because we just sat around and looked at pictures and stuff! I had a really good time tho. Anywho on the way up and back i listened to some music that reminded me of retreat. I really had totally lost my retreat high till then. Like, the next retreat just left yestorday, and normal everyone gets all excited and i was just like....umm thats cool!! But no i am really excited because i know exactly what they are doing right now and i just cant wait for them to come back!! I wish i was there soo bad!!! It really is one of the best things i;ve done!! I so glad i decidedc to do it when i did!
Good luck 7:33!!
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| What is this...loathing |
[28 Feb 2005|10:47pm] |
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I really forgot how much i love musicals. I don't think I've just chilled out in my room and just listen to broadway in forever. I use to do it all the time. It really can put my in a good mood no matter what. I just really energizes me. I just downloaded the "Wicked" soundtrack. Its awesome!! I really want to see it but it doesn't come to philly till 2006! lame! I really wish i could sing. I'll get like chills when ever i listen to someone with an amazing voice.
We got out of school early to day and there was no play practice...which was sweet. Its just a waste of my time. Hopefully well have a late arrival tomorrow! That would be awesome!
ummm...Sean is awesome!!lol In rosie kelly's words tomorrow is the 10 "Monthaversary" Kinda crazy... But for some reason it feels like its be longer than that..in a good way. I'm really glad we're together :) I don't think i could of found anyone better!
"Its just....for the first time...I feel.....wicked."
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[27 Feb 2005|06:16pm] |
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This weekend was pretty decent. We diddnt have school on friday so i scheudaled a visit to SJU. So on thursday it was snowing like woah! And we got out of school after 6th(extreme bouncey ball=awesome) which was totally awesome. I was really hoping that my visit would be canceled because i really diddnt feel like going. Driving up there was the worst tho!! I couldnt find the place and i could hardly see where i was going. But after a while i started to enjoy myself. I really liked the people there. Everyone i met was so nice and i just could def see my self hanging out with those people. I really liked it a lot more than i thought i would and im really going to consider it. It just acemdeicaly i dont know if its for me because i still dont know what i want to do and they dont have communications which i wanted to major in. And their marketing is mainly food marketing. but i dont know. I like the acidemics at Drexel but i really diddnt like the people i met there. they were just dirty and gross. So i dont know. I want to visit drexel again just so i dont judge it just off that visit.
On friday sean came over for a little bit and we just chilled...then we met up with people and went to starbucks for a while. We were suppose to go to the hockey game but we diddnt for some reason. We went to dan greens house later and just chilled.
Sean went to his cousins on saturday night which stunk because i totally forgot that the play starts next weekend so i wont see him for a month!! :( well...hell come see the play and all but it just stinks. So friday night alex and jim came over and then we picked up people and went to this kids house. It was hella crazy! The randomest people were there. It was alot of fun tho...I really thought it was going to get raided tho...but it diddnt...which was awesome! I had a good time
I really am not like grease at all...Im sure like the pink ladies and all them are having fun but im not in like anything and i really dont like the show. Last show i wasnt in anything but i liked the show so i wasnt as bad. I just really dont feel like wasting 3 weekend with it because i have so much to do before april roles around..ugg
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[20 Feb 2005|07:06pm] |
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Yeah its def been a while...I have two weekends to cover. Hmmm Last weekend of Valentines day weekend. Me and sean just went to his brother's house and exchanged gifts and watched movies...It was really nice tho. He got me alot of really cute things but I thought his card the best:) Then on the actual day he just came over and had dinner at my house which was nice. OHH YEAAHH. And bonner sent roses over to prendie which i had NOO IDEA about so that really made my day when i saw that i got a rose from a "secret admires"/sean(with a hello from bill)/ santa. That was really nice tho...def made my day.
On friday we watched the notebook at jays house(which is soooo nice inside!!) Anywho It was kinda hard to pay attention because people where talking...but everyone was quieter than i thought they would be. My mom told me she was afraid to watch it because it would remind her too much of my grandparents. That just made me want to watch it more. And that's what made me cry the most. Just because they loved each other so much and it really made me think of my grandparents. I remeber thinking at my grandmoms funeral that the only thing i really wanted in life was to find someone to love me as much as my grandpop loved my grandmom.
Last night I saw "Constintine" It was really good...I diddnt get as scared as I thought i would but it was really scarey! I would def recomend it.
Play practice today was the worst. I def don't feel like doing this show...but i am...oh well
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 I stole this from jay's phone!! Fun times at Denny's
Anywho, Me and sean went up to penn state for the weekend. I got some acedmics in; I got some partying in (my puking record is done....which stinks b/c i've def been more drunk) I had a really good time and i got a good feel for the place. But i still have no i dea where i am going to college. I like drexel for different reasons than i like penn state. I really dont feel like visiting St Joe's this weekend...I've had enough. I don't know. There's no place that I'm just like "This is place for me!!" I hate decision making. It stinks!
But yeah, my weekend was a lot of fun! I'm glad i got to go up there with sean. I just always feel safe with him. And that was just really nice to have...especially being in a new place. He's the best!
For the super bowl we went to dan's house with was totally awesome time!!! even tho they lost, i thought i was a fun game to watch. I like when games are close...i like the suspence...But yeah we def should of switched arms earlier
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| Yo Its a dollar |
[29 Jan 2005|05:16pm] |
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Ah So what is new? We diddnt have school this friday (unlike some people hahah) So I decided i would go to an overnight visit of drexel. It was alright...The girl that a roomed with was pretty cool. She was really talkative which actually helped alot because it would have been really awkard. I wasn't like "OMG this is the place for me" but it did like it. I got more of the "everyday" asspect of it appose to the party life...which was fine!
Last night was the BIG game at O'hara! It really was alot of fun! I was so excited and nervous for it. Dancing it with a big crowd and everyone there was sooo much fun! I really liked it! I really wasnt all about staying till the game was over so i went to Wendy's and eventually everyone else came. THEN i wasnt all about chilling out in wendy so me and sean left and when to prestons with lindsay and nick...we were only there for like 20 minute but i really had a good time. I was laughting the whole time i was there. It was good stuff. Then we went to billy and we all pilled in the kitchen for a good 20 mins b/c his sister was watching a movie...a bad one at that...that villege...awful.
GUess what i did today?!?!? I got my belly buttom pierced! I know! What a rebel i am! I almost took Jess' hand off as it was getting done. But a got a sticker and a lolly pop afterward for being a brave girl!! :) yess be jelous
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[20 Jan 2005|03:23pm] |
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Yestorday was all around lame! It was good because we diddnt have to go in till 9 but stuff just wasn't going right. For my theology project i accedentially played the unfinished cut and I diddnt realize it till half way through. I felt bad because it was a group project. It wasnt awful...but it could of been better. Then I had dance team which i was really hoping would be canceled because of snow but it wasnt. I'm not really enjoying dance team at all. I can't stand the way it is run. It is just sooo annoy when we get yelled at for talking and not paying attention but then two of the captins go and do the same exact thing. Its just wastes my time. Like, I like when we actually dance at games and all, I just hate all the crap we have to listen to get there. THEN When i was leaving practice I had no control over my car what so ever and i crashed into Ms Gulchinski. That was fun. After i got home from my death ride, Sean came over before he left for retreat. I just hope he has a nice time.
Today was a pretty good day. I just had more energy in general. Then we had our chorus test that i actually knew most of the answers...we watched a movie in english. And in math, me a rosie just had calculator conversation. Good times.
"Ky...you should marry a guy with the last name 'Jelly'...Just for kicks...you dont have to love him or anything"
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| I thought garden state was california |
[17 Jan 2005|11:21pm] |
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Life is going pretty good these days. I finished my Theology project. My grades are decent. Im started to narrow down colleges. And just everything else is going good.(BTW Alex is awesome)
On friday I wanted to just hang out with sean. I was feeling really tired and just wanted to watch a movie...but i really diddnt want to say at my house because of my mom and i just wanted to get out. So we went to sean's brother's house which was awesome because I got get out and just chill and it was really nice there. I was glad to just chill with sean. It was a good nite.
Saturday=capture=me pretending to pay= me making hot chocolate.
We went to Mcdonalads later on that night and the cop there was just a werido.
Sunday I went with sean to his brothers for the eagles game. His nieces were soo cute! I actually paid attention to the game and i enjoyed it...but it bores me after a little bit :-/ but it was still fun! Later that night everyone went to my house and we watched garden state. it was a good time
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| Live out the fourth |
[12 Jan 2005|08:50pm] |
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This week has just reallly sucked in general...to start with i just have no energy and just feel drained. Also I have this project for theology and just nothing has gone right with it. I dont even want to start. Im just so stressed and all these little things are getting to me. I dont know
Right now some girls are on retreat...I know exactly what they are doing right now and i want to be there with them so bad! I need a retreat. I need a vacation. I haven't been feeling really good lately and i just need to clear my mind. Thank God for three day weekend
I can't explain how i feel about this whole situation. I guess i kinda feel hurt...not by you...but by myself. I want to fix but i just dont know how.
Just not a good day
"I Have to stop
Feeling so sorry for myself
but i'll always have to lean on my owm shoulder
Cuz i cant lean on anyone else
And it hurts so much to Misunderstand
And I'm always misundwerstood
But I'll never forget my memories
Even tho i should"
7:37
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| "The five people you meet in heaven" |
[06 Jan 2005|08:45pm] |
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Things have been soo hectic lately! I've basically been 100% on my taking care of myself. I Had everything undercontrol until school started...I just dont have as much spare time to cook and clean than i did over break. And it harder now that my mom is home because The house will never really look clean because he has to have so much stuff with her and eventhing is all out of order...but we are surviving
This week has been hell in school. My studies are fine...just staying awake has been murder.
I'm really freaked out by the thing that happend to the girl "DeAnna." I know that its awful and i feel terrible for her family, but the fact that in happened in my neighborhood really scares me.
I just finished the book "the five people you meet in heaven." i saw the movie on TV and thought it was awesome so i asked for the book for christmas...there are alot of amazing quotes from it...these are some that i liked:
-"That there are no random acts. That we are all connected. Tha you can no more separate one live from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind"
-"It is becausethe human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed."
-"Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know."
-"That's what Heaven is, you get to make sense of your yesterdays."
-"Sacrifice is part of life. It's suppose to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to. "
-"That's the thing. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're oassing it on to someone else."
-"All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handelers. Some parents smudge, other crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyound repair."
-"Sons adore their fathers through even the worst behavior. It is how they learn devotion. Before he can devote himself to God or a woman, a boy will devote himself to his father, even foolishly, even beyond explanation."
-"Things that happen before your lifetime still affect you. And people who come before your time affect you as well."
-"Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move on. They move away. The moments that used to define them- a mother's approval, a father's nod- are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. It is not until later, as the skin sags and the heart weekens, that children understand; their stories, and all their accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their mothers and fathers, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives."
-"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
-"People say the 'find' love, as if it were an object hidden by a rock. But love takes many forms, and its never the same for any man or woman. What person find is a certain love."
-"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But Sometimes, under the angree heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."
-"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it, you hold it, your dance with it."
**-"Each life affects another and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one."**
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Oh It been a crazy week! I went up to seans a couple of time. Its a long drive but i look forward to listening to my CD from Steve riley because its totally awesome and it makes a ride go by fast. I got to listen to 7:37 straight through...i gave me chills! it just awesome! But yeah i went to sean and partied for the first time in a while! It was a pretty good time. Then it was NEW YEARS EVE!!! Totally awesome time!! For the count down we watched the spanish channel! Good times! And yestorday i went up to seans again and just chilled out. It was fun! Sean is awesome and im glad we got to hang out alot over break
over all it was a good break...but i dont want to go back :( school from now on should just be figuring out college stuff for next year and no projects!! its just unnesscessary.
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| Merry Christmahanakwanica to you |
[25 Dec 2004|06:51pm] |
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Merry Christmas Everyone!!! Mines been going alright. Santa was pretty good to me. I'm afraid to even touch my new purse because its just so nice!! I still can't believe its christmas! After all our presents were open, my mom when outside to give daisy her medicine and fell down the steps, so we had to drive her to the hospital. THey think he tore a ligament so shes going to need surgery...I think its like the cool thing to do now...First T.O. then daisy, now my mom, its nuts!
*Me and dan are gonna find santa and take him down*
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heather: whose all there?
alex: Margaret, jay, jim, krisy, sean, burner, my sister, sarah, and bill
Burner: Ha! I'm burner
sean: ha! Im her sister
This week has been rough! Its like a hell week of chorus and on top of that dance team and dance troup! By tuesday i felt like a was near death! I had to take the wednesday off. If it was just school i may of made it but i had dance team in the morning chorus after school and a game after that. I just diddnt have any energy and everything just hurt. So i took that wednesday to recharge.
Eventually, friday did come! me and sean made cookies! And mine were sooo better than his. We challenged jimmy to eat all of then but he's a big wimp and couldnt do it! boooo jim! Saturday there was a RIDICULOUS amount of people at my house!!! It was crazy!!! and we really diddnt do much of anything...just chilled out.
Today i played some FOOOTBALL and i was hella good! hahah yeah right! I just stood there. I caught the ball once! i was proud! by the time i got home i was an icicle! It was not cool! but a took a bubble bath and all was good. Then i went to my christmas concert. Me and sarah had a good little convo for a while. then we had to sing and we did pretty good. and now im hear..updating my jounral..yeah thats all i got
ThiRdfiNgeR1025: i saved a girl from gettin raped in kutztown
LuckyStar1160: Noway
LuckyStar1160: how did u do that
ThiRdfiNgeR1025: yea i changed my mind
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This friday was the christmas dance!! It was a really good time! I really liked the way i got my hair done!! Normally i dont like updo's but it was looking hot! I had a little flower put in it and all! Everyone went to alex's house for pix...there was seriously like 30 people there! We couldnt even fit everyone in one picture! We were gonna have everyone go up the stairs and i was really excited about that but we couldnt even fit that way.
The dance itself was alot of fun! My date was AWESOME and hella hot. Even though he wanted to rape me :-/. i really wasnt in a dancing mood :( but I still had a really good time. TN (I dont know how u really spell it) did his hella awesome harlem shake!!!! I was sooooo good! I heart you TN!
Last night i went up to sean's house because i knew he must of been way tired and i diddnt want him to drive down here. So i went up there and we watched dawn of the dead! It was actually a good movie! I dont mind going up there that much! Its really nice over there. :) And i get to hang out with this awesome guy!
Chorus concert = pain in the ass!
bigsw55: u seem out of it
LuCkYsTar1160: how
bigsw55: u are usually like "sean ur so hott and i want you so bad"
bigsw55: and im like woa! i love jesus
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Yeah its been a while...first off:
Http://bradzinc2004.tripod.com/wonderboy.wmv
Watching it....or die!
Also....Bradz is awesome
So yeah...whats new? Friday Me and sean went to the mall just for fun. It was a good time. Although we def should of built that bear...We'll do that another time though. I've yet to buy a single x-mas present! I'm such a procrastinater.
After that we went to the battle of the bands...Otto was really good...but im just not a "battle of the bands" type person...i can only take so much of it. so then we went to Mcdonald and there were some crazy as Messed up kids there. I went to go the the bath room and there was only one stale working. And there already some"one" in there so i waiting and there a realise there are more than one person in that stale and me and some old lady just look at each other like "WTF" and then after they take like 9 years...they come out all stumpeling and what not...me and preston think they were doing drugs. Anywho...then were was a crazy fight between them and it was a girl fighting a guy which is kinda messed up...and rooney got in there somehow. So we had to leave and we went to my house...it was a lovely night.
Last night was pretty fun. We went skating at Penn's landing. There were alot of people there that we knew that diddnt come with us. It was really fun. And ed and liam were doing karioki...which was a little scary...but funny. I had a good time.
Today we had some physics stuff to do and i wasnt feeling to good so it seemed like it took forever. but we got everything we needed. I think im dieing or something...Ive been soooo unnesscessarialy tired for like the past every and im just really fed up with it. And i just feel gross....but i dunno... other than that...all is well in my universe
bigsw55: like man i wonder how sean became the best ever
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Thanksgiving was Hella awesome. Even though we had the odded coversations. Which isn't really abnormal....but the fact that it was thanksgiving made it a little abnormal.
Friday night we went to Hibacki for lindsays b-day....and yes....they did ring the gong! And it was awesome. We went to the bowling alley...but no one bowled...and then we went my house and watched elf. (BTW I finally returned it after being due over a week ago)
there was crazy drama yesterday...It started out with king of prussia and ended up with just me and sean chilling out. Which was fine, i just wish i diddnt have to go through drama to get there.
GREASE AUDTIONS THURSDAY!!!!!!!! WOOT!
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| The Deli List! |
[22 Nov 2004|10:38pm] |
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*Juniors: Awesome job with senior roses*
Ah today was good day. Started off with me waking up at 9 b/c of sunday night play. Yes! be jelous! I actually wasnt tired in Math class so i actually learned something for once. Also i found out that we get out at 12:36 (or somewhere around there) on wednesday!! which is awesome!
I had chorus after school...which was lame! but then got to to start making my AWESOME panda for my homeroom...yeah...its hells ghetto! oh well...that what u get for putting me in charge of it.
Grease audtions are in 2 weeks! I am sooo excited! It's going to be such a fun play! And some random people are trying out which is always awesome!
I can't wait for thanksgiving break! I really need it. Yesterday I got to just sit and listen to "linda eder" which i haven't done in forever and just look through my sketch book. It just relaxes me so much. I use to do that all the time. I forgot how much better it makes me feel. I need to add some stuff to my book too!
Speaking of Thanksgiving, my fam and the Cavs Are have thanksgiving together which is going to be hellla awesome because normal its just the 4 for us for thanksgiving and its kinda lame. SO it will be nice to have alot of people in the house.
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Pippin part II!!!!!
Friday night cast party was at my house! It was good time. My back porch was way crowded and i tried to start a front porch revelution. It took a while to catch on...but it did.
There was crazy drama last night. Eventhough, it was a really good show. The audience was awesome! Which really makes a difference. The senior girl hosted the cast party in the caf. It was pretty good. I was so tired and felt kinda sick so i left a little early....but it was a good party
We get our senior roses tonight! I'm gonna ball!!! I almost started crying during the bows yesterday!
I'm kinda mad at myself for little things that i just didn't realize before, and i probally should of.
And it's amazing
With the look in your eyes
Like you could save me
But you won't even try
And then you tell me again
How everything will be alright
And if I told you
That I'm sorry
Would you tell me that you were wrong
Or would you hold me down forever
If I came to your for answers
And I saw
Pictures in my head
And I swear I saw you opening up, again
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| "Is it just me...or does that pizza look like watermelon" |
[18 Nov 2004|09:31pm] |
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I've been extra out of it lately. Maybe because of play, maybe because it's getting colder, I dont know. I can't really explain it, but i feel like all my comfort zones are slowly begining to unravel. I've just been picking up on little things: People who seem to be distant; changing environments; everyday things that just aren't the same. I just have this realy bad feeling and i don't know why.
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